Ho'oponopono

ho'oponopono ~ youth voices ~ page loses voices ~ laryngitis ~ fear of speaking

I have been paying attention to the symbols, situations and such around my current surroundings while I re-visit the Bay Area, a former home I left in January 2008.  Among the recurring themes are folks undergoing lawsuits,  handling responsibilities of being caregivers of dementia patients (either as their profession or it is their own parents), and several people with newly diagnosed blood disorders.  I also keep finding jewelry, especially rings. But I'll skip some of that, and head straight to "losing voice."

I'd spent a lot of time working on a proposal for an organization whose mission is "empowering youth to find their voice and become agents of social change," and it has the title "Youth Voices Academy" as part of their moniker.  The backing foundation also wishes to "seed creativity" and "providing underserved youth with the tools and skills for creative self-expression." We ended up working together to come up with the final proposal for a festival.  I was a bit surprised to learn we ended up losing that grant to no one else--the funding organization that was going to bestow a grant pulled out because (they said) wanted something geared for broader age groups.  Upon critically re-reading my final written proposal, I saw that I  held back and did not voice my highest, idealized vision; I diluted it to a more feasible, yet ultimately mediocre route in hopes that that might secure the grant.

Around the same time, I've been re-reading The Cluetrain Manifesto (also online for free), where they treat 'voice' as a craft. This 1999 book had been very influential for a while among business and marketing folks in the early stages of social media as a way to have a human and humane person-to-person exchanges rather than the distant, couched, and often automated robotic drone taught as business "communications." That lasted for maybe a few years on the Internet before it was drowned out by schools of broadcast media (which just happened to coincide when I left marketing altogether as a field).

Then, I read recently that Google co-founder and current CEO has "lost his voice." 

"Google Inc. CEO Larry Page had to miss Thursday’s annual shareholders meeting because he has lost his voice. He will also skip upcoming public appearances — a conference on Google’s Android mobile software next week and a call on its earnings report next month. "

At this point, seeing the headline splashed in bold letters "Google CEO Larry Page Loses Voice" startled me.  (It made news here since it will affect him for weeks, and thus people are speculating it may indicate something more serious.) Page is only 39 years old (I tend to pay a bit more attention to the more out of the ordinary clues, than say friends' parents in their 80s with dementia--although it was so frequently brought up, I did look it up too and apply Ho'oponopono).  

It's also telling that one can read the headline as "Page Loses Voice." In other words, I've not wanted to share any pages of my writing for a long, long time without highly censoring it first. 

A common (although it's typically days, not weeks) "lost voice" dis-ease is laryngitis. Louise Hay's book,  Heal Your Body, Heal Your Life, shows this symbolism (and it's pretty obvious one).

LARYNGITIS: Fear of speaking up.

I've felt a fairly constant contraction and constriction around chest/heart, and also up through to my throat since I've been in the Silicon Valley part of Bay Area.  Some of it feels like it stems from a warped belief that  I must hold myself in check here, as it's a very rationally-minded, cerebral, analytical, science-only (or you're deemed stupidly dangerous) worldview sort of place. The feeling of suffocation is simply me stifling me out of habit of (seeming) self-preservation.

For me, 'voice' means more than simply 'speaking up,' as voice can be expressed through art, music, dance, or any expressive actitivity or state of being as well. In fact, when I consider the phrase "speak out" if feels less like Life expressing through me and more like justification and defense which isn't the point, either. The lost "youth voices" grant possibly points to the fact that I have been postponing another creative project because it's scary to put new and novel things that don't fit the status quo out; thus, circling back to Louise Hay's root "fear of speaking out".  (Typically children and youth are symbolic of new creations and new growth, as well.)

I don't have any fix it, change it, make/force something happen type solutions in this post. It's ultimately the awareness and acceptance and allowance of that which appears to be someone seemingly separate out there--Larry Page--isn't separate. That the Whole of Who We Are is 100%.  We are the  same and if some recurring discord (such as dis-ease) shows up in our perception it reveals a fixated, recurring pattern, in this case, that of 'fearing of speaking out' (or any outward innovative, creative expression as underscored by the youth component; not to mention Page is young as far as CEOs of large public companies go).  Once that pattern is acknowledged through Ho'oponopono (or really, lately I'm feeling simply any type of energetic embrace and exposure to Reality or Awareness) it begins to yield its fixation to fluidity of the ongoing symphony of life, or what Dr. Len (popularized Ho'oponopono) might call inspiration, zero point, or the Divine. 

Update, and beautiful bonus: 

Excerpt from a voice coach's article, "No one else can sing your song" that I just happened to come across today:

"When people walk into my studio, before they even open their mouths, it is an act of emancipation. [In the USA, it's Independence Day.] They come to this work to be “unsilenced.” To reclaim some aspect of their full humanness. To share their most secret and sacred wishes. To open their mouths and – bravely, beautifully, tremblingly – sing their song."

ART CREDITS:  Photo by Buskaid.org; Young Flute Player by Judith Leyster. 

the gulf is clearing!! -- good news ~ global sadness lifting ~ music medicine ~ hado and masuro emoto ~ john hutchison and zero point ~ happy water = happy dolphins

The other day I opened the book, The Secret Life of Water, by Masuro Emoto, and landed on the pages on the healing properties of music, specifically jazz. Since this blog was set-up to "clean up the gulf in us" (and as a side-effect of our own clearing, the oil spill in the Gulf of Mexico), I'm sharing some relevant information. Recall, that water and the emotional body are interrelated.

"Hado medicine focuses on the underlying cause of the symptoms of illness, in contrast to the medical practices which require that we take pills or undergo surgery to deal with the systems of the disease."

"The wavelength generated by anger is the same as the wavelength generated by the molecules of the cells that make up the liver, so the wavelengths of anger and the liver are in tune with each other. In the same way, the emotion of sadness is in tune with the blood, and so sad people tend to be easily plagued by leukemia and hemorrhage type strokes."

What's interesting about the above paragraph is that is exactly what many folks have been saying and I've been sharing in this blog,  blood problems represent lack of joy, or in other words, sadness. However, previously I was coming mainly from the angle of archetypes and symbols.  The paragraph above is closer to the Chinese medicine concepts of Chi, energy and/or vibration. So archetypes and tones both point to the same message. Even a subtle lack of joy obscures the natural flow and circulation of complete well-being (beyond "health" alone) .

The Gulf coast's oil spill was a message from the Earth itself reflecting our emotional body back to us in an vital message--that we must embrace our real selves, which knows a very peaceful, innate, natural and innocent joy. Now if you are actually living moment to moment in joy, you are probably NOT reading this, and this message isn't yours to hear. I know, myself, I was in a period of grief and sadness when the oil spill happened April 10, 2010.

"All symptoms of illnesses vibrate at a unique frequency. By knowing the frequency, it is possible to overlap the wavelength; thus, the frequency of the illness is dissipated and the symptoms alleviated." - The Secret Life of Water

THE GOOD NEWS:  A couple of related vibration/toning good news. Beside Ho'oponopono which will clean up stored emotions (there's nothing wrong with emotions coming and going like notes in a symphony, it's when they are lodged into the body and held onto like a broken record that physical problems may arise to alert you to the fact you aren't living in the present, Now.) Notice that even Masuro Emoto's work shows that water responds the best (in forming beautiful cystals) when exposed to the vibrations of "I Love You." (I also find it funny in that cosmic pun sort of way that Emoto devotes his lifework to the study of vibration and water, and his name sounds like the word 'emotion'--and water is all about the emotions.)

In addition, as we'd already said in previous posts, chanting Ha, and/or Ham works very well clearing any imbalances around the pumping station for the blood, or the heart. And the same day as I flipped through Dr. Emoto's book, I was flipping through the Nov/Dec 2010 issue of Utne Reader "Ode to Joy" about research study published in The Arts in Psychotherapy that showed that depressed patients that listened to 50 minutes of classical music daily fared better than control group that went to talk therapy. Depression=sadness. So uplifting music seems to also be another joyful thing to include in our lives.

“Music offers a simple and elegant way to treat anhedonia, the loss of pleasures in daily activities,” the research team, led by Miguel-Angel Mayoral-Chavez of the University of Oaxaca, reports in the journal The Arts in Psychotherapy (via Miller-McCune, "Classical Music an Effective Antidepressent", August 2, 2010)

And the really good news shows that the Gulf Coast is healing and one mode is through frequencies  (of course, all emotion is frequency too--so clearing out old sorrow and other unconscious conditioning via Ho'oponopono is a frequency clearing method as well). 

Experiments showing water samples of 7 ppm of oil and grease are coming back after the frequency experiments below with zero parts per million of oil and grease.

"John Hutchison, scientist from Vancouver, BC [a scientist I recently obliquely refer to in a recent post on my other blog, Crossroads Dispatches--see the end where a tape is played--John is the brilliant genius referred to in the tape of a garage experiment that Bushman and Cook watch together at Lockheed Martin] and Nancy Lazaryan from Minnesota sought to help those affected in the Gulf of Mexico by the oil spill disaster.

Hutchison is world famous for his work with frequencies. Lazaryan can be described as intuitive. Samples of polluted Gulf water where sent to Hutchison's lab in Vancouver. Hutchison and Lazaryan worked together to identify certain ancient harmonics that have been used for healing. These frequencies were applied both with audio and radio waves to the polluted water samples.

Finding success in these limited experiments, Hutchison and Lazaryan packed up the necessary lab equipment into a
borrowed trailer, and with a borrowed farm truck, left Canada to come to the Gulf.

The chemical analysis from the first "open air frequencies" experiment in Perdido Bay have shown the Gulf water can be restored to health.

Restored without the use of dispersants, chemicals or burning. Restored by use of Solfeggio tones, also known as Gregorian chants, and a harmonic "stream of sound".

The inspiration for these harmonics comes from the Essenes, a sect of Israel that Jesus was a member. The Essenes "inner circle" taught of the "stream of sound", the harmonics of the Creator.

Hutchison and Lazaryan endeavored to bring the "stream of sound" to the damaged waters of the Gulf. One of the tones used by Hutchison, 528 hz, is the frequency of the planet Jupiter. You can see Jupiter in the night sky, if you look for the bright light directly to the right of the moon. 528 hz is known by the ancients to be the "healing frequency" and to repair DNA.

Hutchison and Lazaryan are NOT asking for ANY money for the work that they are doing. This is a gift." - Press release by Nancy Lazaryan, October 27, 2010

Note the following quite recent update. Joy to the world! "The water [emotions] is clearer... and the dolphins are happy. " Thank you to everyone worldwide that is sincerely cleaning up the past in their emotional body! 

The following is an update we received from Nancy today, November 1, 2010: "We have gotten reports from citizens (who work and live on the water) that "something happened"....the water is clearer...and the dolphins are happy. (One of these people is a captain of a boat that charters dolphin sightseeing tours, and logged an entry concerning the change in the water and the dolphins being "happy".) These people had no idea of what we had done in Perdido Bay." - Pure Energy Systems

Additional information on Hutchison and Lazaryan's oil cleanup via frequency healing results here at Pure Energy Systems' site.

Ho'oponopono on liver cancer -- anger is like a hot coal that burns the One holding it

"You don't cure the body with the body, you cure the body with the mind." -- Plato

I'm not sure about the "mind", but it's certainly not the body. The One Life, or Infinite Intelligence or whatever we wish to name something unnameable has no problems with perceiving perfection, which appears to the body as a "cure." In fact, it is actually (to me) more like pulling in a template for your perfect body from another dimension (or perhaps Emptiness, or what Dr. Len and Ho'oponopono described as Zero Point) that has and always will be immaculate, harmonious, whole.

I've had a friend who was young, and out of the blue developed a liver problem even though she rarely drank alcohol. In fact, the doctor had no idea as to the cause (but at that point, pinpointing cause wasn't primary, as healing was). I asked my friend if they were open to hearing metaphysical interpretation (which is in my mind not necessarily any more "spiritual" or less spiritual than drinking lemonade on the porch, or consulting a doctor, or playing a guitar... it's just a symbolic way of conveying information and messages). I knew they were harboring much resentment and blame toward their father, and avoided contact with him. But I didn't even tell her that, I asked her to see if there were people and situations--and to make a list--that she was holding anger against, as liver stores anger. From there, forgiveness or application of Ho'oponopono or any manner of things is possible. Years later, this friend has a good relationship with their father. 

Rarely do I spend time on Facebook, and even less clicking on Facebook links, but a friend forwarded this video and sighed, "I'm holding out for a love like this." Now, as I feel like I am recovering from a tumultuous relationship that went awry pretty much on the same day as I started the Ho'oponopono workshop, it's not exactly the first thing you think I'd click on.

As I was on the blog of the video author, I noted he had cancer. Clicking around some more, it seems like liver cancer:

Cancer: Deep hurt. Long standing resentment. Carrying hatreds.

Liver: Seat of anger, chronic complaining. Fault finding to deceive yourself.

The above are the symbols from Louise Hay, however, virtually everyone that does this type of work is quite familiar with cancer=resentment and liver=anger without referring to any reference materials (from what source I do not know).

So, it's not as I have to search far and wide to see where inside of myself--it's not anyone's fault--but it is a distinct message to me that I cannot ignore that resentment, and anger are not healthy. Anything I do to harm another (through harboring resentment and anger) harms myself, period. I know this. I have seen this in action in my own life. I know there is no "other." Everything is everything. And in this case, harming myself is harming Kristian as it is spiritually all One Body. (Metaphor one can use is to imagine you are a leaf on a tree, and you wish to cut a limb or root off the tree because you are pissed at it. Somehow believing that as a leaf, you are unrelated to the rest of the tree. That's how must humans perceive.) (Or the old adage: "Cut off your nose to spite your face." Uh, pretty stupid, eh? Unless you are so incensed you cannot see straight... cutting off the nose is obviously is harming the face.)

And yet, does knowing this all directly, deeply, did that stop me from wishing to emotionally hurt my boyfriend by staying mean and angry (and doesn't matter whether the anger is "justified" or not). Did that spur me to wish to drop all the pain and resentment and anger now? No, it had not.

Not until I read about Kristian. 

"Holding on to anger is grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one who gets burned." - Buddha

Well, I think Buddha is only partially right--or perhaps they forgot in translation the capitalization--you are the One who gets burned. Anger has ripple effects most of us don't even want to begin to think about. I've had enough awareness in the past few days to see how dangerous this is even before this epiphany (including my left knee getting momentarily tweaked. Knee=inflexible pride Left=Not being receptive, denying intuition). Yet I'd not totally challenged myself enough to let go. Let go of resentment and anger.

Ho'oponopono work is not done by simply saying over and over in a monotone, "I love you. I am sorry. I release all this. I love you." It must be absolutely sincere, and not coerced.

Once I (or you, or anyone really) can really let go their anger and resentment, then Kristian's cancer is healed.

(Some of you won't believe that, that's fine. Or you will believe that the person with the cancer must do it himself, yes, that is ONE option.  I am not here to persuade anyone. If you want to try Ho'oponopono, fine-- it is not being forced on anyone. Here is a step-by-step example of using Ho'oponopono on shoulder bursitis.)

Bonus:  " The term used for this displacement of anger is "projection." The ego within us is constantly "cruising," looking for situations onto which anger can be projected with seeming justification, in order to convince our minds that the cause of the anger is without, and not within." - A Course in Miracles, Lesson 21

I recommend Byron Katie's The Work as a way to embrace our projections and question our "arguments." Another practice would be to silently declare whenever you feel anger towards something/someone specifically , "I am determined to see [specify person or situation] differently." Don't strive or strain for resolution, simply have the willingness and be open and receptive to any guidance that may arise either immediately or over time.

p.s. After I wrote this post, I see that Kristian's doctors say he has cancer in his liver and bowel. I say he is completely perfect and whole.

This is Kristian's video to his wife that is "virally" making its rounds in the Internet: