A friend of a friend of a friend is in the hospital. He's quite young, early 30s. The symbolism in the message of this dis-ease (via Louise Hay) is:
Leukemia: Brutally killing inspiration.
The whole point of Ho'oponopono is to reveal our innate origin which itself is Pure Inspiration moment to moment.
(By the way, it's not anything to become some day or get back to... it's more like clouds obscuring the sun, yet the sun isn't missing in action, only our awareness of Awareness may be.)
If you've read A Hitchhiker's Guide to the Universe, you already know the answer to everything is 42. So let's take a look at #42 in these notes from an interview with Ho'oponopono pioneer, Dr. Hew Len (I'm joking slightly about the 42--taking all this with a heavy heart doesn't heal, and you'll never be able to continue to clear.) Anyhow, #42 is:
"42. Ho’oponopono is a process of only looking at myself and working on the garbage (memories) in me (my subconscious mind), because once I get myself in rhythm with The Divinity, everybody else gets into rhythm too; But if I am out of rhythm, so too will be everybody else." - notes by Saul Maraney of watching an interview with Dr. Len
In note #86 of Dr. Len's talk: "By now saying to that memory “I Love You”, Divinity transmutes that memory, and takes me back to my original state of Void and Infinite, and inspiration can then come through."
Coincidentally, I also reading this post yesterday on shadow side of artists (recommended reading). It's very telling, yet still leaves a lot out. In my experience (yes, much of it is anecdotal, but I know a lot of creatives), many have suffered from trauma, and addiction (of all kinds, not just stigma type) is a way to blot out pain. Often it actually appears to 'work' for a while.
I have my own experience with acute stress disorder. If I recall correctly, this is the term for symptoms of PTSD, although occuring immediately after a trauma it is common... it becomes an issue if these syptoms persist and thus acute turns chronic and long-lasting. A person close to me whom is a university professor of psychology told me about studies in "post-traumatic growth," and that (and applying it) has all the difference in the world.
What I found with emotions like grief, anguish, despair, etc. is that ofen they bring up earlier, unresolved emotions. In my case, it brought up my dad's rather sudden death (only a few months he declined steeply) when I was 17 years old, mostly. But it brings up everything.
Actually, so does being an artist... the creative process itself. It brings up everything, bidden or unbidden, it has no compunction about it. But that's a big topic and too much for one post.
(Just in case you're wondering how I'm tying these seemingly disparate ideas together... I'm not doing it. These were presented to me within the last 24 hours. Notice patterns. There is an Intelligence there. And there's always this reminder:)
"Your medicine is whatever appears now." - Byron Katie
Today, flipping through a random magazine lying on a coffee shop table, I pick up and read (these are a few highlights):
"A lot of times when people develop PTS [post traumatic stress] symptoms, it's because the traumatic event is linking to earlier memories that have not been processed," says Francine Shapiro, Ph.D., one of the world's leading PTSD experts. Memories, she says, often of vulnerability and powerlessness.
One study showed that women were 33 percent more likely to suffer PTS symptoms after 9/11 if they had an earlier experience with unwanted sexual contact. Such findings challenge the assumption that PTSD is confined to a single event. "We're the product of our memory networks," says Shapiro. "How we feel and how we perceive the world is based on the past experiences we've had."
"Sometimes even the direst traumas can lead to positive outcomes. In the case of 9/11, several studies found that many people had an increased appreciation of life, altered priorities, and a new understanding of personal strength afterward. Some of these effects faded after six months. Others, however—like increased kindness, spirituality, and teamwork—did not." -- "How to Manage Post-Traumatic Stress," Women's Health, September 2011
This is just the start of a series I'd like start on these 'shadow' topics that are RARELY broached in polite domesticated society. It's not a great idea to keep this all bottled inside, and I believe that expressive creation is one modality (combined with ho'oponopono it'd be so powerful!) that can allow for fluid living that is not resurrecting old memories (as emotions are often recycled, and not truly a response to current life) but living in the Here and Now in inspiration.
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p.s. For folks that come from other 'schools' for instance nonduality, Buddhism, Advaita etc., I think of memory as conditioning. From a Toltec shaman perspective, reacting from memory/conditioning is referred to as the Parasite.
p.p.s. The What is Ho'oponopono site is very informative. All the information and notes from Saul Maraney above are copyright © Saul Maraney - 2008.
Art Credits: Photo via DesignJulia.com.
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