"The reason can give nothing at all
Like the response to desire." - Wallace Stevens
What are my qualifications to host a "beyond 'The Secret'" series?
Am I an expert on abundance?
Am I credentialed in manifestation?
Am I hailing from the right lineage of teachers and masters?
(Forgodsakes last week she only had four dollars in her wallet. What does she know?)
Do you see the trap you've fallen into if you believe I have to be an expert? That I need a diploma in manifestation? That you'd like to talk to my stockbroker and financial advisor for evidence that I know squat about what I'm talking about?
Oh, I may be tempted to give you some "credentials" but the Universal laws don't give a damn.
If you need my qualifications to listen, there's a good chance you're holding a belief that maybe you need to be "certified" or "anointed" in some manner to create what you desire. Maybe you're thinking you've got to "pay your dues" and "earn" your creations. Or, at least, be able to prove yourself a worthy enough investment for the Universe to take notice (as if it operates as a bank or venture capitalist).
If you need my qualifications to hear, there's a good chance you believe that someone else, anyone else, is granting you this unconditioned and unlimited wisdom, power, love already innate within you.
You don't earn your way through good works, or prove your worthiness, or chalk up enough merits and pay your indulgences.
And She doesn't require a recommendation, a lead, or your ROI analysis. She doesn't require a return on her investment whatsoever.
Grace is free! Absolutely Absolute vast & free.
I understand though; there's oftimes I don't trust that the very tenderest fluttering of love and willingness are going to suffice either.
I have been for so many years absorbed in a quest and exploration of the transcendent otherworlds of formless and Absolute consciousness. Currently, I find myself totally smitten by the tangible, and Earth herself. And the alchemical union of the formless with form.
My favorite Tarot card captivates me. It is the Princess of Disks (to the right), representing "earthiness of the earth."
"Here we have an attempt to translate into a picture the spiritual quality of earth, eternally pregnant and containing in its fertility the unwritten cypher of cosmic lore." - "Princess of Disks" interpretation, Instructions for Aleister Crowley's Thoth Tarot Deck
Eternally pregnant. I adore that image of creation. This devotion, that desire to touch this earthiness of the earth for my self, more than suffices... for earnest desire ruffles the wind and moves the mountains and it is the way of manifesting in Mother, in matter.
Be wary of experts. You are the guru. (GURU = Gee, you are you.)
So I'm not writing this as an expert bestowing expertlyness, but rather as an adventurer and creatrix of the golden age cavorting with fellow wayfarers & imagineers.
You have all the questions and answers, as you are all the questions and answers. We need only to quit pretending we don't...
“Taken totally aback but definitely not wanting to startle her, I nonchalantly asked her ‘Oh yeah? Whaddya mean?’
“‘I mean, this is our last year to pretend. After this year we get to be real again. No more pretending.’
“I kept cleaning out the cabinet and asked her if she could explain any more. She said, ‘This is our last chance to get to pretend. After this, we get to be real again. No more chances for pretending because this is our last chance.’
“I did ask her (still nonchalantly but showing interest), ‘And this is a good thing, right?’
“‘Oh yes, Mom... a very good thing. We’ll get to be angels very soon.’" - "Indigo Children", Library of Halexandria
Bonus: "When I first saw the Princess of Disks, I was utterly captivated. [Me too!] I got a Scandinavian feel from her, particularly Finnish--which really made me identify with her, as I'm a quarter Finnish and a quarter Danish.
I made an immediate connection not only with the card, but also with the disk she holds. To me, it's the Sampo: a magical object forged by Ilmarinen the smith in the Finnish national epic 'The Kalevala'. The Sampo was supposed to be a three-sided mill, one side grinding out grain, one salt, and one money. Its lid is multicolored and even though it is eventually destroyed by Louhi, mistress of the North Farm whose daughter Ilmarinen courts, its fragments take root and continue to produce and symbolize prosperity. It makes perfect sense for the Princess of Disks, the earth of earth, to be holding the Sampo (who knows, perhaps she is the daughter Ilmarinen had been seeking to wed, born of witch-blood and proper bearer of the Sampo)." - posting by 'prosewitch' on the Aeclectic Tarot forum
images Timothy Lantz' (newly discovered - wow; I totally love a pure sleek dark too) A Change in the Wind; Princess of Disks from the Thoth Deck, art by Lady Freida Harris; Timothy Lantz' Quintessence